Where does time go?

The above photo is from the inside of a refrigerator I cleaned. I didn't know what that blob was, but it smelled sort of like pickles and it looked like it was about to move. So I took its picture...

It's been so long since I've written on this. I was sure I'd blog here and just dabble on MySpace, but it's become easy to write my little writings on MySpace and neglect this, my old friend.

So many things are happening all at once. I feel torn between all the obligations in my life, and yet strangely at peace with it all. I know that I can do only what I can do, and that to expect super-human levels of activity, you have to be super-human. I'm not. I'm just me.

I'm managing to put in 5-6 days at our store. Some days aren't FULL days, but most are 9 hours. I had two Isagenix parties at my house this past week, so I put hours into my OTHER job as well. THAT job is way fun, though! Still, we're going to the gym regularly, and we even relaxed and watched a movie last night. That was a rare occasion!!! The thought of the Holiday season arriving in less than a week is sort of overwhelming, but I'm taking a deep breath and bracing for it.

There are several good newses. I'm not expecting perfection from the Holiday season, and I'm not going to be "santa-in-mom's-clothing" this year. We're going to scale way back. Well, I am going to scale way back. After all, it's the first year in two different businesses, both of which take money to make money, although Isagenix takes as much or little money as I wish to put into it. So the relief from the expectation I set for myself is a good news. Another good news is that 2007 looks VERY promising, financially. The store has taken a turn for the better both in inventory and volume. My little business has found a wide-open field of opportunity which excites and amazes me. I fully expect to have a monthly income from that business that is sufficient to pay our monthly expenses in full by the end of 2007. The requirement from me is that I remain on the products, which means I remain healthy and lean, and that I continue to share the information with other people every single day. This, so far, has not been hard. In fact, so many people are actively seeking a way to get out of the obesity epidemic that is taking over the population of America, that basically all you have to do is hold up a sign that says "I know how you can beat this" and the people flock to you.

Oh! For those of you who check in on this blog and are following my progress; I'm at 30 pounds lost. The celebration tonight was to have prime rib at the Outback! I felt horribly full, yet it was SO tasty! I know I won't do something like that again for a very long time. I can't imagine trading the great feeling of thinness for the temporary feeling of consuming mass quantities of fat and cholesterol and salt! *shudder* It just doesn't make sense.

I had some interesting things happen at the store today, but you can check MySpace for that.

Tomorrow David is playing bass on the worship team at Canyon Hills. The benefit for me is that I get to hear him practice, so I get to hear the songs and learn them better, AND - I get to hear him sing when he just absentmindedly starts singing along with the CD. It's very awesome. Two things that have always made me very, very happy are to hear someone I love laugh, and to hear them sing.

Speaking of that - I was reminded again of a dark, dark time in my family's history. Greg, at that time, was under great attack. But I remember him walking through the house and singing. I started crying when I heard this, because he was singing a song of praise to God. My heart was torn as I considered how he had been so deeply hurt and had been threatened. I was afraid the one who had threatened him was going to cause him real harm. But he had such a deep trust in God... it prompted me to write a poem for Greg. I remember the last line of the poem was "facing the darkness with Light's song". He honestly stared down darkness, and the light that was in him drowned it out totally. The sound of song coming from a trusting heart - THAT is a testimony with which darkness cannot argue. No matter how strong the power of the darkness, it has to move aside for the light that comes from above.

So... singing. Singing will always be the thing. When I'm getting ready for another long day at the store, and I know David is weary and not looking forward to another day of moving appliances and dealing with traffic, and I hear a song coming from the shower as he's getting cleaned up... I can't help but smile.

The gift of music.

The CD is paused, and he's working on a bass part from 'Lord I Lift Your Name On High'. It's after 10pm, but he's determined.

Tomorrow over 1,000 voices will join in that song. Shattering darkness.

Why would you choose to live in darkness? To spread darkness? It's so much better in the light.